If God gave me grace then why aren't I graceful?

I wish i had the chance to be this creepy. Just 5 minutes of your time. Thanks.

you know.

Remember that time I put glasses on my dog?

Me neither.

where did it go?

Do you remember when you had not a worry in the world besides scraped knees and a game of red rover?

When nothing mattered except slumber parties and gold stars on your spelling test.

I'd give my left pinkie to relive those days.

I'm a lost cause.

welp.

Hey do you remember that time I was happy? Me neither. 

Lately I have been so lonely.  I miss thinking I'm in love. I miss holding someone's hand. and blahblahblah. Two years is too long.

But on the other hand, I am currently on a frantic search for a cat. I need one so bad. Since Kiki is gone, and so is Brittnee, and Ricki is never home. I think I need some company. I want a cat like this qt bb. Its up for adoption here, but I don't think I have the money to get it. Goddamnit.

Recently I've been overly obsessed with everything cute and japanese. Stupid characters and bento boxes. I found an entire site in English that ships here and its full of this cute japanese bullshit that I really don't need, but I will probably buy it anyways. I have a habit of doing things like that, blowing money on useless shit. But I guess that comes with being 19. 

I'm also supposed to be getting 2 new pair of jeans in the mail tomorrow and I think the new Harms Way LP shipped today as well. I'm a tad excited to be wearing jeans without giant crotch holes. I guess you can say I'm a luxurious kind of lady. My sarcasm isn't humorous. 

Today I also erased the entire chalkboard wall in our living room. Since Brittnee is moving out and taking most of the decor, and we erased the wall, its looking a little bare and unsettled in here. I'm not a fan, I can assure you. So as soon as I can, I'm going to be in full decoration mode. Martha Stewart can suck my ass. 

Where did my life go?

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My life is probably the most boring thing to happen to mankind. I barely leave this hell hole of  a town. I'm also pissed school is starting Friday. But, thank Satan I only have MWF classes. That means I can dick around the other 4 days in the week. IN OTHER NEWS today our dishes finally got cleaned. When I say our I mean Brittnee's dishes, not me or Ricki's. they had been in the sink for close to 3 weeks because I cannot deal with that shit. I will ralph everywhere. But,  thanks to Ricki for being a fucking trooper they got clean.

We also found on that Brittnee is moving out this week. FUCKING YES. She is a sweet girl and all but I cant deal with her messes and her parties and her snorting shit off of the dinner table. Its just gross. So hell if you need an apartment in Murfreesboro and you aren't a disgusting slob. Go ahead an move your shit in. 

Im also currently considering moving though. This town is going to make me go insane. I have no friends, the scene is dead, the guys are tools, and all anyone does for fun is play beerpong. I can't handle it much longer. I will fucking shotgun a keg of bleach if this gets any worse.  My life isn't interesting.